Well I suppose I could, but it’d be dangerous. I went to the dr cos I was throwing up blood and she said I tore my oesophogus and if I keep purging it’ll get bigger and I could ‘bleed out’ eek! So no more purging for a while!

It’s really hard not doing it though, so so hard! I guess I just need to start restricting to see the numbers fall instead of purging. Down down down they will go :). Maybe its a good thing this happened becasue purging really doens’t make you lose at all! Or at least binging and purging doesn’t ;) and now I’m forced to restruct and I will lose weight faster; silver lining yay!